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Spinning and releasing my thoughts...
I mainly started this blog so I could archive my life. Kind of like a
capsule thing. I forget things easily so I thought this would be a good idea
so I could look back and all the weird and crazy shit I did at a certain time and age.
So yeah, check it. Or don't, I don't care. Haha.
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Random facts:
My name is Jake.
I'm 19 years old. I was born in June. I'm a Cancer. I love music. I play various instruments. I like to record random stuff and write lyrics. I love to read and write. Photography.Photoshop. Friends.Movies. Current Role Models: Priscilla Ahn and Tori Amos tagboard
Followers
NoePaula Melissa Taylor Priscilla archives
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Catch & Release
I've let myself down again. I told myself that I was going to try and blog a few times a month, I guess not. With everything that was going on in the past 4 to 5 months I felt like I just didn't have time. But I don't want to forget anything so I'm trying to keep myself and blog as updated as I can. So let's flashback all the way to last May.May: Germany was amazing. I went to so many places and shops while I was there and had a blast. I don't think I'll ever forget, especially with all of the pictures I took.  I know I have plenty of stories about the trip but don't have the patience to type them all out at the moment. All I know is that I hated to leave. I felt like I lived there for years and was being taken away from my home and family. When I got back to Seattle I had some amazing Japanese food and then boarded the plane to Wenatchee. The trip back seemed like it took forever. When I got off the plane I finally got to go home and see all my family. It was nice even though most of them were sleeping. Two days later I had to go to Prom with Libby. I was still heavily jet-lagged and it just wasn't all that great of a night. Even though I tried not to let anything bother me, I wanted Libby to have fun.June: I started working cherries for the summer and took some time off from Slime for it. I worked the night shift which went from 7:30 p.m. to about 7:00 a.m. it was crazy.  I loved it though, we had so much freedom. I worked in an office with just one other person sometimes it would be three of us. But this summer job was filled with a lot of downtime with just chilling, watching movies, and music. My birthday was June 30th, one of the most depressing birthdays of my life. My Dad forgot again, my girlfriend and I broke up and of course my truck was still having problems. It seems that just buying myself things and being surrounded by friends was the only way to get on with my life. It worked for a while, but every now and then I would just think about her. Brian, Amanda, Kate, Kelsey, Dustin, and Miranda seem to be the only people this summer to put a smile on my face. I'm just glad I had friends to fall back on.July: Still working at Stemilt, still not like Julie all that much haha, Rusty is awesome though. There was a janitor there though who was balls ass creepy as fuck. No joke. Being alone in a dark office in the middle of the night with some creepy janitor, no thank you. Still broken up with Libby, I tried everything I could but all she did was say how she wasn't ready. I was just mad and mostly hurt. All I ever heard was "I still love you and can see myself being with you for the rest of my life." I just couldn't help but ask myself who the hell says that to someone and then does nothing to make that happen. I was just disappointed and started to lost faith in everything to say the least. August: No more cherry season thank god, even though I do miss the paychecks. No more truck, all sorts of crazy shit going on with that. I got kicked out of my Mom's house and moved into my Dad's. I was so happy, I felt like I was starting over and making a difference with myself. Things were OK. Libby and I got back together, I could tell she wasn't ready though. I thought maybe she'd get over it soon. I thought she did when September came around. September: My Dad and got into a huge fight. I just couldn't handle it anymore. I felt like he just needed to understand a few things and apparently I wasn't getting through to him.  Libby and I went to Idaho for about eight days. We drove down to Mountain Home, Idaho. An 8 hour drive!!! It was well worth it though, because of this trip I felt like we re-connected and I got to see my family. My brother Daniel, his wife Tif, and my niece and nephew Brin and Sammy. I love those kids. :] I had so much fun down there, seeing family and getting to spend so much time with Libby. Things couldn't have been better. But the whole time I was there I kept thinking about my Dad and how much I just wanted things to change. We came back from Idaho and brought Tif and the kids back with us. Libby and I also started symphony.October: I patched things up with my Dad. Went to symphony and stopped working at Slime. During this time I did a lot of writing, reflecting on the past summer and just non-stop song writing and composing. I'm actually very happy with the recordings. Something had been bothering me though for the first part of October. I could tell Libby was unhappy. She was trying to distance herself from me and I just felt really unappreciated. She doesn't light up anymore like she used. I just couldn't really love the person she has become anymore. So we broke up, I had to do something to make sure she was happy. In the end that's all that really matters to me, I just want her to be happy. Even if that means sacrificing my own happiness. I know so much more had happen in these past months but it's the main gist of everything so that way I can remember everything and whoever is reading this if they care they can know what happened too. If I want things to change and want to be happy then I need to start doing things to make that possible. Peace. ☮ |